I feel so empty. I slept well, but I went to sleep crying and I wake up crying. Physically, aside from a few sharp pains on my right side, I am doing surprisingly well, But my heart aches so badly that I just don't see how I'm going to continue on with my life. Part of me wants another baby RIGHT AWAY to make up for the one I ..... But I can't take care of a baby at this point in my life so I know better. I just want to die. I want Brown to call me and come over and comfort me but I know that isn't going to happen. Maybe one day I will be blessed with a wonderful husband and children but since I don't know when that will be, I'm not even going to think about it. I want to be with Brown but he doesn't want me I know so I just would be hurting myself even more. I do have a reason to call him on Friday since that is his birthday, but I wonder will he call me to see how I am? I miss him and I miss my child. I hope that God heals me because I don't see how I can continue to live like this-the pain is just too much to bear.
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