Well, I believe I made my decision. I'm keeping my baby. I told Brown and he gently flipped out and got off the phone. I know we're broke and I know we have no support, but damn this is a LIFE!!!! I know it was wrong to wait until the last minute to tell him and for that I am sorry, but when he got to going on about how his plans in life weren't going to happen and what would I do if he wasn't around, it kinda ticked me off. He wasn't violently angry and he did apologize for sounding selfish but why is it always about him? He's had it easy with me for damn near four years and what about what I want? Don't I count for something??? And when I told him that if he wasn't around, I would survive, I don't think he liked the sound of that. But let's face it-I really don't picture him in the picture!!! I guess its my way of preserving myself from getting hurt again. In a perfect world I would love for us to be together and happily raise our child, but I don't kid myself. I don't know how all of this is going to work out, but I have to have faith and PRAY that it all works out. I just feel like shit, though... :(
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