Alot has happend in a month...

So it's been nearly a month since I've written and a few things have changed. There is this Latino guy at work who I'll call Papi who has been flirting with me. Now he isn't the most handsome fellow but he does have a certain intriguing swagger about himself. He is about 11 years older than me and has got some issues, but who doesn't? I think the fact that I see this guy every day versus seeing Brown like once a month makes things harder. Part of me wants to see where this can go, but another part of me does not want to cheat on Brown, especially when I see him and he just blows me away with his looks. Not to mention the great sex, and the fact that I'm not on any birth control. But dang, I just don't know what to do. The thing is that I am happier with something to look forward to. My outlook on life is brighter and who knows why this guy was put into my life? At the very least, I will have made a new friend. I don't even know what the worst could be. Brown has no idea but as far as I am concerned, as long as I don't sleep with Papi during my ovulation time, I should be alright. Maybe I won't sleep with him at all-that would be best.
In other news, my dad is going to start working 20hrs at the local hardware store. It isn't alot of hours or money (he'll make less than me and my sister), but it will be a start. I'm glad that he has something to do because he needs it, and hopefully he'll become full time and get more money. It will help me and my sister out a bit. I sort of feel that the manifestation is near, and I pray that I am right. I can see the future and it is so bright-I just need God to get us to that point!