Oh wow! I have SO much to catch you up on! I slept with Papi on 11/24 and then found out that I'm pregnant by Brown on 11/30!!!! As you know, I have been trying and wanting to get pregnant with Brown's baby for the longest and it finally happened! I'm kind of mad because I was liking Papi and the sex with him was pretty good, and I wanted to explore that further. But now, I think we'll just remain friends. Brown has disappointed me b/c he says he is broke and cannot afford a baby. Logically, I know he's right and although I set up an appointment to terminate the pregnancy, I know I can't go thru with it. I haven't told him that yet and I'm sure he won't be happy. He kept apologizing but that's not what I want to hear. I want him to want this baby as much as I do, if not more. But he hasn't contacted me in a while so I am not going to contact him. I guess he needs time to get used to the idea that he got me pregnant. He asked me if I was on the pill when it happened and I lied and said that I was-no need to have him angry with me ;)
So hopefully Brown will contact me and we can talk and discuss things in person. I am not going to discuss this with my family until I talk more with Brown.
I can't believe he's behaving like this but I can't let it upset me or the baby.
Hopefully the blessing is on the way b/c we need it more now than ever!!
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