No Change, Really

Now I don't know what in the world (or outside of it) is going on. Brown is back (!), and I'm back good with my old bff. I'm happy for these things but why don't I get hired somewhere? I did all the interviewings for md anderson and it looks like they filled the position I truly wanted. Now what am I supposed to do?
I guess there is no point lamenting over things. I just have to continue forward. I've made up my mind that if a guy wants to help me, then I'm gonna let him. I'll see how things go with this new little guy. He is awfully handsome so doing him shouldn't be hard. I just wonder how much money he's sitting on...trickin. It is a shame but I NEED MONEY!!!!! We can't go into the new year like this-I just don't see how...where is God?