Sigh...

Although I no longer have my car and I refuse to pay to get that stuff out, and my dad's truck broke down, and we have to ride around in the family car with its bad tire, bad brakes, and expired stickers, even though we don't know whats going to happen to us one week from the next, and although I don't know whats going on at work, today I am content. I have a roof over my head today, I can rest. I have food to eat. I also have a man that I love that makes my body sing with pleasure, who I don't mind having a child by if it happens. I may miss parties and reunions but as I rest and relax, I find that these things don't really matter. I know that somehow, some way, my family and I will survive. We will have our homes, we will have our cars, and we will live the way we have always dreamed, and do the things we love. God will provide. I'm reworking my resume in the hopes of landing a better paying job. I'm taking care of my body so that if I do conceive a child with Brown, it will be as healthy as possible. And I take every opportunity I can to just rest. I can't let this life break me. I know I am here on this earth for a powerful reason and as long as I stay strong, it will be revealed. So now I go back and relax and enjoy the rest of my Saturday ;0