Well, all of a sudden I've been getting contacted by people from my past! It's kind of weird but good because I need more folks to socialize with when I get back on track. The main one I'm surprised I reconnected with is Crazy Christian! Seems like we've both been through a lot and it feels good to chat online with her. I can't wait to get back to my life. I'm so damn tired of not having any money, freedom, privacy, or independence. I know things could be much worse, and I am so greatful that they are not, but when Lord when will things change for the better? I am getting so depressed and despondent, and I'm very worried about my mother. We've tried job fairs and online applications and nothing has come to pass. The lottery is a joke and my dad is, well, I know he doesn't have a lot to work with but he doesn't have to be so snippy and rude about things. I just hate Hate HATE being dependent on him! I want my own money and my own place again! I miss my life! I am so angry that I just dont know what to do with myself at times! I'm not even sleeping well because of his snoring and my nerves. I was hoping he'd go back on the night shift but looks like we're getting 3 weeks straight of days. I hope God hasn't forgotten us. I know He has a lot of children that need Him but still...I dunno, I'm trying not to get sacrilege but I do have to express myself or I'll go crazy! Lord, don't forget us. I thank you for all that you have done for us and continue to do, but please deliver us out of this land of lack.
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