Ugh...

So, I haven't heard anything from any of the jobs I've applied to. I need money! My phone bill is due, the weather will be changing soon and I need clothes and I don't have SHIT! This is really pissing me off! I'm tired of not being able to eat what I want to eat and waiting on my dad to do stuff. I miss my independence. I'm angry at God because He isn't moving on my time which I know not to expect, but still...I really want out of this situation. I am so, so, so damn pissed! Listening to my dad whine and moan gets really old really quickly, especially now that he's on days. I much more prefer it when he's on nights: he doesn't talk much and then he's gone and then me and Mama get to enjoy what I call "slumber party time". Just the two of us. I am very thankful for the fact that my sister has her tuition for the year paid in full but what about me? I'm tired of my life passing me by without my permission. If this is what my life is supposed to be like, then I want no part of it. This is just too damn depressing. Well, back to my books and television shows. Seems like that's the only thing keeping me halfway sane, that, and the little shred of faith I still have left....