Well, I survived my first full week of work at the university and so far, so good. I enjoy the peace that comes with being on campus again, but I do miss the drama of the daycare, plus my friends there. I wish I could babysit the infants I cared for but without my own transportation, I know that won't happen. The family car needs so much work done on it, plus my mom's tickets need to be paid. Then there is the rooms and food and gas and just so much fucking stress that I don't know how I can get up in the mornings. I've been in a real funk lately-I guess its just too much on my shoulders. Brown just "comes" and leaves, which breaks my heart. I'm still going to try and get pregnant this week if I can because I just need something positive to look forward to, plus I want Brown. I know I'm being selfish but lets face it-the right way just doesn't work, so I gotta play the hand that was dealt to me. I hate this life, I truly do.
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