Well, I'm excited about Wednesday but nervous too. I miss my old life but realize that I've probably outgrown it. I miss having a home and my own transportation, but I am thankful to still have the family car and a roof over our heads. I want Brown and I to take the next step in our relationship, but I know that neither he nor I have the financial means to take care of ourselves, let alone each other or a family. I get nervous, excited, scared, angry, hurt, frustrated, pissed, tired, lonely, and depressed. Some days I have it all together and other days, I just want to bury my head under the covers. I NEED positive change and so does my family. I don't know how much longer we can hold on and I am SO tired of the emotional roller coaster this life of poverty and homelessness causes. I just want to scream sometimes. I know my problems are not as bad as others, but then again, they are huge problems nontheless. I just want it to end-positively. I don't even ask why anymore because I realize that there will be no answer. I just pray for strength and wisdom, patience, and integrity because that's all I know how to do at this point. I really don't want our lives to be in vain-this can't be the end for us, it just CANNOT end like this!
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