BROWN!!!

This blog entry isn't even about the negative aspects of my life. No. It instead is about the good. And right now, the color of good is Brown. It seems like God has answered my prayers and brought Brown back to me. Although I don't want to seem negative but it kind of helps that Brown isn't in his apartment anymore either, and that he's struggling too. But perhaps he would be able to help me out financially if he were doing better, but wouldn't hold my breath. Anyway, I don't look to him for money, but to listen to me and to do those things to my body that no one else can do. He lit me up! And the little things he did, like the hugging and the kisses on my forehead made me feel so safe and loved!!!! The emotions that I felt with him made me realize that deep down, he does love me and that when things get better for the both of us, we'll be together in the way that I have dreamed of. He may be pudgy, but he's my pudgy man and I love him! And let's face it, the babies will be adorable!

But now I have to make a decision as to whether or not I'm gonna start an intimate relationship with that handsome hood guy so that I can get some money....I do need my hair done, and some clothes, so I guess I will, but I will do it safely or not at all because I want to be as pure as possible for my true love.