Ok, I had two interviews and testing yesterday for three different jobs, and I feel pretty good about that, except for the fact that I have to wait at least 2 weeks before I hear from anyone. My phone bill is due and there isn't any money to pay it. Then I learn that my dad's job is going to shut down for 2 weeks and I'm not sure if they're gonna pay him for that time. If he doesn't get paid, we have no where to go. And we didn't win the lottery tonight. I realize that there are just way too many things that are bigger than me and I cannot worry about them. God usually makes a way and I have to trust that this is going to be one of those times. He made a way for my sister to go to school, and that time we didn't have the money to stay it turns out that we had been in the room for a month so we were covered for a week. So God stepped in those times and I have to believe that He'll step in again. I'm just so tired of not knowing what the next day is going to bring for me and my family. I just want us to be forever delivered from the financial bondage that we've been in nearly all my life. I want my parents to have the home of their dreams and I want the home of my dreams as well. I want us to live again. I miss living and enjoying life. But I just don't have the strength to cry and worry anymore. God knows what is going on and He has to do something, or else there is no us. I just cannot believe all that we've been through! It can't all be for naught! IT JUST CAN'T BE!!!!
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