Late

So, my period was five days late this go around, but it was probably due to the fact that I've been under alot of stress at work. I caught a two week break with the rooms but then that old thing at work had been snooping around trying to sabotage me when I'm clearly in the right. On one hand, it doesn't bother me at all. I clearly have other things more pressing going on in my personal life. But on the other hand, I want to tell that woman off just to get my point across and to let her know that I am not greedy nor ignorant. So I guess it was that reason why my period was late. But I just don't understand why all this drama has to happen to my family and I in the first place. Ah well...it never does any good to dwell on the "what ifs" so I wont even go there. I'll just enjoy my rest and my alcohol. I might be able to get a job on campus due to my sister and her networking skills. I truly hope I get it because that would be a big help to my family and then I can leave the daycare and all its drama behind. I just want to walk away from something for once by my own accord, and not be kicked out or have things taken away from me. I just want to have a voice in the direction my life is headed, for once. Happily, though, Brown and I are doing well. We talk and laugh together. I really feel that when things get better, he and I may take the next step in our relationship. So I guess I'll stop trying to get pregnant and start taking responsibility to ensure that it doesn't happen, although I feel that God is handling that even though I'm not on birth control. Its like Brown is never around during my fertile days and he never ejaculates in me. So I guess in a way I don't even have to worry. So now I just have to make sure no unexpected pregnancy occurs and that Brown and I can do things the right way, the way we really and truly want. At least we can try for something to go right in our lives. So in conclusion: do a good job at the job I have, pray for a better one to manifest itself immediately, and take care of my family and my relationship with Brown. And thank God for what we have.