Well, well, well. I know its been a while since I've written but so far, we've gotten a lone star card, which means ALOT more food (woo-hoo!) and I got a job working full time at a daycare for $10 an hour. It isn't what I wanted, but I got it and I do like it there. My co-workers are cool and the babies are babies, and as long as I can deal with the babies primarily, I'm a happy camper. So I was able to get car insurance but I still have to get my tags together, so I'm riding on a prayer until the next payday. I thank God for this opportunity! Now (and don't tell anyone) I'm trying to get pregnant. I want a baby with Brown so that I can move in with him. I don't want to abandon my family but lets face it-Sis will be graduating soon and I'm tired of hearing Sniffy and Snorty make noise. This one room just isn't big enough. And personally, I don't want to be caught paying on this crap. I'd rather get a crappy apartment-it would be cheaper! But I'm trying to get pregnant THIS MONTH so that the baby would be born around Brown's birthday. I just need him to bring his sperm on! Ugh! You'd think with all the sex we've had in the past that this wouldn't be a problem but now it is. I know I'm being selfish but really, he'd be happy. Plus, I think he needs something to steer him in the right direction. He has a house we could stay in! Plus, he's gonna be an uncle soon and who wouldn't want to have a kid of their own to grow up with their cousin? And heaven knows our kid would be GORGEOUS!!! So I'm off the Pill, trying to track my ovulation, and get this man to do his part!!! We'd be happy together, I know we will...but I do realize that if this doesn't happen, it wasn't meant to be at this time. I realize that I dont' control things but I'm not above trying!!!
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