All these babies!!!

Well dang! Another friend is about to have a baby! I feel so left out! I want a baby with Brown so badly but yet again, he's never around when I'm ovulating, let alone does he ejaculate in me so it ain't gonna happen. I know its for the best because I don't know if I'm going to have a job past December and as of right now, I don't have a back up plan. Not to mention the fact that nothing has changed for my family yet concerning our financial situation. I know this is going to change but WHEN??? We need LOTS of money NOW!!! I like my job because it is easy, but being the house nigger makes me mad. But I don't want to lose this position without having something better to go to next. I just don't know what to do, think, or say anymore. And to top it all off, my laptop is messed up so who knows how much that is going to cost me to fix. So this life is getting pretty tiring and I want a new one now!